Home for the past 3 weeks!

This has been my home away from home for the past 3 weeks. I can't believe the boys will be 3 weeks on Monday. All in all they have progressed really fast for all of the health problems they have had. Just 3 weeks ago both boys were on C-pap machines not being able to hold their oxygen Sats. Brody was often comforted with Morphine. Taylor could not figure out how to suck, swallow and breathe; which made eating more than a chore to learn. When the nurses told me they were worried as well it made the days seem like they would never end. At times it would get very discouraging to see other babies come and go. This is one experience I will never forget.

My emotions have defiantly been on a roller coaster ride. Trying to divide my time between home, Audrey, Dennis and the babies has been challenging. There are often times of feeling guilty being away from one of my kids. There were days when I just wanted to scoop up the babies and run out the hospital doors and head for home. I have also felt so blessed with all the help. Audrey has been well taken care of and loved by family members. It has made this experience easier knowing your first baby is being well taken care of.

With all of my fingers and toes crossed.... Brody should be able to come home tomorrow!! I have been told this multiple times. I have often showed up with a diaper bag and high hopes to get to bring one baby home just to find out he had a set back and he was not going anywhere. This has been more than frustrating. Taylor should only be a day behind Brody. They have had to prove themselves of being able to wake up on their own wanting to eat. They boys were suppose to complete the first 24 hours with their feeding tubes in but both boys decided to pull their tubes out yesterday. They have eaten all of their feedings for the past 24 hours.