Having twins is so hard. It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It actually annoys me now when people say "oh I wanted twins". I think to myself, Do you though? Have you ever stopped and really thought about it? There is more than dressing to babies up and getting stopped every where you go (This is actually frustrating now) When I go into a store I only have a few minutes before one starts to cry I am on a strict schedule and I don't have time. (see I told you I needed to vent)
I feel like my life revolves around crying. When I get one soothed and to bed the other one starts in. There is no break from crying in our house. Audrey was hanging on the babysitters leg tonight begging to go to her house where there is no crying babies. If I was a kid I would be doing the same thing.
I missed a baby shower tonight because of babies. I wanted to go but I have been hopelessly trying to get the babies on a schedule and I knew that it would throw things off. I though oh I will put them to bed at 7 and Audrey can go to be ay 8 and then I can have some time to myself. hahaha what was I thinking seriously. They are both screaming as I type this. (Don't worry they are on my bed right behind me. It does not matter if I hold them or not they just scream. So I will vent and listen to the only sound that is heard in our house as I vent.
The only way I can describe twins is think of a regular baby and how much attention and work they are and then double that and you have twins. It takes me twice as long to do baths, diaper changes, feedings, making bottles, etc you get the idea. I had this crazy idea that I would have tons of help for awhile. I am not sure what I was thinking here. I did receive help for the first month but everyone has their own crazy busy schedule.
To top everything off I thought it would be a great idea to tackle school right now on top of having twins. Yeah I know I'm crazy. My days don't stop there is always something that needed to be done 10 minutes ago..... oh well what do ya do?
Oh yeah and then their is this sweet little girl who is neglected more than any kid I know right now. She has a great attitude 98% of the time and is always willing to help. She wants me to play with her the second both babies go to sleep. So I feel beyond guilty when I just want to sit down for 5 minutes.
Ok I feel better now.
Really I do
Thanks for listening. (reading this but hey all of my girlfriends read this so I just vented to everyone at once)
4 comments:
Um... having twins is WAY more than twice the work... it's at least 4 x's the work because you get no break/no rest and you're exhausted just trying to do normal stuff. Seriously though, between 4 and 5 months you might see some light... that's when Everett started sleeping for longer chunks of time. (like 7-10 hours at night).
I agree with Tyrell, 4 x's the work. I'm sorry that I am working now and can't help. Hopefully we can figure out a way to help out more. Love you Crystal.
ok, come visit soon, and I can take the babies off your hands... I would be MORE than happy to do so. You are such an awesome mom.
Oh Crystal I'm So sorry! I do agree with Meg, come here and visit and I'll take one and Meg can have the other! Audrey would have PLENTY of attention from all the kids that miss her!
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